Memories

You can try to run away from sadness and surround yourself with beauty, but in the end sadness will still be there. Australia is one of the most amazing and stunning places I have seen, yet I find myself thinking about my brother all the time. There's just so much here that he would have loved. Those of you that know Neal are aware of his love of the ocean. He would always get upset when the ocean was calm, he loved big waves. The waves here are intense. He would have loved it and would have never gotten out of the water. I miss my big brother so much. The loss and emptiness I feel inside hasn't lessened at all and I'm sure it never will. I was listening to an album my friend Robert gave me and there was one song that made me think of Neal.

Last of Days by A Fine Frenzy

something’s causing feet to fly,
rising like a dark knight in silence
traffic’s slow with broken boats
heading for the sea
and I’m an island

I watched you disappear into the clouds
swept away into another town

the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
I’ll be lost without you
until the last of days

the sun is in the east,
rising for the beasts
and the beauties
if only I could tear it down,
plant it in the ground to warm your face

I built myself a castle on the beach
watching as it slid into the sea

the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
I’ll be lost without you
until the last of days
until the last of days

through wars and harvest moons
I will wait for you.
the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
I’ll be lost without you
until the last of days
until the last of days

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